Seven...it's the biblical number of completion.
I've been on a journey the past seven years and
didn't even realize it until recently.
It's been seven years since I lost my job in Tulsa.
I was in a state of complete fear and anxiety.
I was losing hair, I was losing sleep, I was losing hope.
I was in a very dark, depressed and unsure place.
My trust in God was completely and utterly lacking.
I could tell you in that moment that I trusted Him.
I could tell you I knew He had a great plan for my life...
BUT it was a total lie!
I didn't know what it looked like to completely trust the Lord.
I'm not sure when God did it but I KNOW now what it means
to completely trust in Him.
How do I know?!?!
Well...here I am, seven years later and I'm unemployed.
You might be a bit confused by that statement.
Well, let me go on.
I lost my job on October 26th.
The next day I felt so much peace.
Peace like I've never felt before.
I didn't tell a lot of people that I'd lost my job.
3 days after losing my job and ZERO advertising...
I had about 8 photo sessions lined up!
This sustained me the 8 weeks it took my unemployment to kick in.
My mortgage company had an unemployment program
that allowed me to pay a reduced monthly payment.
Friends hired me to help them move.
Friends had me over for lunch or dinner or even both sometimes.
Generous gifts from family members.
I had more time with my family over the holidays
than I've had since I was in college.
I got to spend my free days with the kiddos
from Maisha while they were here.
I went on interviews and trusted God to open
and close the doors He saw fit.
It was just a few days ago that I realized...
"it's been seven years since I was in this place before".
I started thinking about the significance of that
number and what it meant for my life.
I was able to go back and see just how little trust I had
in the Lord to provide for my every need.
This time I've been able to sit back and let Him take care of me
in a time in previous years I would've been a
complete stress ball.
Now I'm not claiming
"Wow...I'm all good...I'm fixed...God did it in 7 years...onto the next thing!"
I still struggle in other areas of my life with
complete trust but that is for another day & another post.
Best news of it all...I go back to work on Monday.
I'm excited about starting a new career.
I believe it's right where He wants me.
This song is so fitting for this season.
I will remember all God had done in my heart through it all!
And my God will supply every need of yours
according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.